Saturday, May 21, 2011

Life "How do I Live with Pain"

I had a woman, she was in Hell, and didn't know how to live with the pain of Endometriosis. I do want to add, other people do suffer pain from other things in life, that keeps them from living a Normal life. So, maybe this will be of some help to others too.
Sarah was her name, she could not conceive a child and was trying for adoption. She suffered a lot of pain, she questioned, "How do I carry on. Raising a child, living with pain.? How?" So I had to try to help her make it through life.
This was my Answer:

I could not resist, in the hope of helping you make it. I have raised 2 children with this Horrible Monster Endo. It has taken over my life. I had to adapt to living with it. When I was needed to be at a school doings, recitals, classes, cheer leading, choir, doctor appointments, and sometimes for both kids the same day or at the same time. My husband's job was 3 p.m. to 11 p.m. I had to do these things by myself. To be there for my kids, when they needed a shoulder. I did it. Only God knows how in the hell I was able to do so. I can't figure it out. The excruciating pain. I would be in tears. Feeling drunk from the pain. Somehow, I did it. Oh, I would ask myself how am I going to do this. I did. There were times I could not get out of bed and be trapped there with no one to help. I would be dying for water, and couldn't get it. Rolling to my side I would vomit from the pain. Somehow, when I was in that bad of condition, would carry into the next day. I just don't know why or how, I did it. You know what? I think you will do it too. Somehow you will tell yourself, "I am going to do this, I don't have the time now. I will take what I have to, the the hot water bottle, just in case, to get this done". You will paint a smile on your face, you may look pale, but you will do the best you can. While they aren't looking you will suffer the pain, but you will not let them know, if you can help it. When you have a chance you will go to the bathroom and double over in pain, where no one will hear or see you. Having endo makes us ladies stronger than what we think we are. A lot of ladies in here know I just got done with my daughter's wedding, they ask me how did I do it. All of that work?!?!" It needed done, and it was important, if it meant to be in a wheel chair, or putting knee pads on to crawl, I was going to get it done, By God, I did. There were days I was in tears. Thinking I am not going to make it. I did not have a day of rest. Pain I had. And I collapsed a few times in the stores, the beauty salon, etc. One piece of advice. Try to be lazy the day before, this help No matter if you feel bad the day before or not. You can do this . It will be hard. But I think you can do it.

I am wishing a lot of luck. Yes it will be hard. I hope you get the child that you long for.


1 comment:

  1. Pauline, this breaks my heart. How you were able to make it through those years is nothing short of a miracle. You are right, you do what you have to do and children add so much to our lives. I had a friend who had endo years ago and surgery somehow helped her. It's one of those things we hide or don't talk about, yet there are so many who suffer in silence. Great post that will help so many Pauline!
    Colleen
    http://grannymountain.blogspot.com

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